Travel

Should I go to China? Should I not go to China.....

A lot of people are saying yes, go, it's one of the last chances you'll get for at least several years. Your grandparents are getting older--you should go see them.

I hadn't planned on it.....I was excited to go during the school year--excited that maybe I'd get to travel and see Taiwan for the first time, Hong Kong for the first time, and Guilin, where I've wanted to go for a really long time now.....all those beautiful mountains and that beautiful water.

But right now, the only reason I'd go is to see my relatives, and especially my grandparents, because yes, they are getting old.

But...I'm also weary from traveling. A little strange, perhaps, because I like traveling, I do travel.....but right now I just want to stay. Stay put, stay here, stay in Houston and absorb. Absorb what? I don't know.......everything. To rest, to be still, to........sigh. To gain that relationship with God that I so thirst for, and yet it escapes me. I miss You.

But is it selfish of me if I don't go? I have the opportunity, but I don't just because I want to take it easy? My relatives do want to see me, and who knows when or if my grandparents will ever see me again?

Oh my goodness. Yeah, I should go. Right? =[.